Finally - Some GOOD news!

Dear Mum and Dad,

Hiya, guess what.....

He's Here!!

Jenny's lovely wee man has arrived! Marshall was born on Sunday the 17th, at 3:08am at Charlotte Jean Maternity in Alexandra. 8lb 5oz and perfect in every way.

Oh he's LOVELY, blue eyes, dimples and a crazy head of thick DARK hair! He actually looks more like one of mine that the other two, he must take after you Dad <3

Now, I know I haven't posted on here a lot since you left us Mum. Please understand that it in no way reflects on how I feel about you. I think about you ALL THE TIME. I cry for you ALL THE TIME. I miss you ALL THE TIME.

We had the Prado for a couple of weeks after Paula went home, and SO many times I'd catch it out of the corner of my eye parked in the drive way and I'd have to catch myself before I called out to the kids 'GRANDMA'S HERE!!'

It's just so bloody hard getting my head wrapped around the fact that you're gone.

Every time something happens I want to call you and tell you about it.

Every time I need advice the first thing I want to do is call you.

Before your funeral when we couldn't find your wedding band, my default action was to text you to ask where it is. (Don't worry, we found it, you had it on for your final journey.)

Are you guys together up there? I wish there was some way to know. Some way to get a message. Some little shred of 100% PROOF that you're together, and you're OK.

I think you visited me the other night Dad, as I was drifting off to sleep. Was that you? it smelled like you. Even if it was just a dream it sure was comforting. Thank you if it was.

I'm sitting at your kitchen table right now writing this. I spend the day with Jen and baby Marshall and now the kids are tucked up asleep. I'll go to bed soon, but it sure is strange being here without you.

I miss you guys.

So much.

Love Cath
xoxo